Thursday, May 9, 2013

As I grow


As graduation slowly approaches, real life comes quickly upon me as childhood life slowly fades away. As a high school student I was under the wings of my parents. I always followed my parent’s opinions. At the time most decisions were being made I truly thought I was making the choices on my own. I have realized how ignorant that thought was of me. Even if my parents tell me that it is my decision and it’s my choice to make on whatever the situation maybe, my decision comes subconsciously from what I think they will choose. Personally, this is not always a bad thing, but it’s always not a good thing either.  After graduation I will be moving to Charleston to attend Carver Beauty Academy. My parents are helping me purchase this cute little yellow house up there, which I will have to help pay the bills for. My parents told me that they would help pay for my stuff for the first three months and then they are going to slowly fade all the cost to me. They said they wanted me to be settled with a job to make sure that I had things covered. When I am on my own I won’t be living under the influence of my parents anymore because I will not be having the constant contact with them like I do now. Yes, I will be visiting them every once in a while, but it will not be the same as living with them.  From being under their roof so long I will carry some of their traits with me, but I will also be starting some of my own. I might not even realize that this is going on at the time, but I know it will. I watched the change my brother went through when he first started going to college. The decisions that I make will not be based around the opinions or views of my parents anymore. They will be based around my own. I will be living on my own instead of the shelter of my parents. As I continue my walk through life I will have many experiences. Some experiences will be good and some experiences will be bad. I will learn from every single one of them and sometimes I probably won’t even realize it. I will meet new friends, allies, and possibly even enemies in my future. Everyone that I meet will hold a great impact to my life. I will be in situations where I will have to think fast on my feet (not a strong point for me) and others where I will have to be patient.  I could possibly witness things that may change my mind forever. Between all of the people I meet, situations I experience, and things I will witness my opinion will change. A year from now, I make it my goal not to base my decisions on my parents opinions, but on mine own instead.