Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Dear Life Letter


Dear life,
Gee, we have had quite the times. You sure do keep things interesting. Not that I’m complaining because boring is just not fun. We have had some great memories through the years.  Unforgettable Memories that I surely won’t be forgetting anytime soon, at least I hope not. Even when I didn't realize it, I was learning some type of lesson with most of them. Even if the lesson was to just enjoy the moment. So, I owe you a lot, life. I can never be truly worthy of the blessed life that God has given me. He has been there with me throughout the entire time. He has walked the path with me for the whole eighteen years of my life. He will continue to walk with me through the rest of my journey as well.
Let’s begin this; back in seventh grade I remember decorating this face we drew on paper with actual makeup. There were ten of us who contributed to this. Her name was Shelia; she was absolutely beautiful (not really) with her sloppy messy lip gloss, bright red blush, and bright red hair. By the time we were done the paper was so soggy, but we were still so proud. Amanda Morrison was the keeper of her and still to this day she has kept her.  Let’s fast forward to the tenth grade, which was the year of many memories.  This was the last year of Burch and the year that I turned sixteen. The summer before entering into my tenth year, Amanda went with me to my family reunion.  I remember us going to Wal-Mart and picking out a Hannah Montana birthday card for no reason at all. We ended up signing all of our names and giving it to my grandfather for his happy unbirthday. We took goofy pictures in Mawmaw’s van and then we eventually made our way to Hibachi’s, which was Amanda’s first time and she now goes there ALL the time. I totally introduced her to her favorite food place.  Back to the tenth grade, I remember on my sixteen birthday going to Charleston with Sarah. WOW! Good times, good times! Nicholas Sparks was visiting at the civic center for a book convention and as the nerd I am I just had to go. I loved listening to him talk about his books, but Sarah absolutely hated it. She was so falling asleep in her chair, it was hilarious. Afterwards, we went to the Texas Steakhouse and we both ordered virgin Pina Coladas. We were both so hyper on the way back home. It was so late and daddy was driving back and I don’t even know how he concentrated with our screaming. We had called Josh and sung to him and eventually he just refused to answer after the first fifty calls, so we just left him voice messages with our terrible singing. The next year for my seventeenth birthday, Sarah and I went to the Mexican restaurant and watched Footloose at Southside Mall. We then walked around the mall, Wal-Mart, and even Big Lots and had a great time. We have this little game we play in Big Lots that we have to play whenever we go there and it’s just basically hide and go seek tag. Later that night we went back to my house and we played chubby bunny. There is a video somewhere, but I don’t know where.
Not every moment has been a good one, but they are all still a part of me.  Quite a few people have come and gone, but even if they only lasted for a short period I am still glad that they were there. There have been many family members and friends that I have lost over the past years, some because of the fact that they were only meant for a season and others because of death.  I don’t regret any of them because in one form of another they just made me stronger.
One of the hardest moments in my life was in Nan had her stroke.  It devastated me.  It was about seven years ago and my grandmother has never been the same since. She now has the mind of a two year old and she hardly even knows my name. Growing up she was my best friend.  She was the one that I always confided in. She always told me that I was her girl and I will forever be her girl. She was always the worrier of everything.  Before I would leave for the beach with my parents she would always tell me to stay away from sharks and to stay away from the vents in the pools because I would get sucked in.  When I was little I always had this image of a shark coming out of the vent because I would mix the two things together. Yeah, there were times when I would even refuse getting in the pools because of that.  Also, I remember that until I was in the second grade she would bath me in the sink because she thought that I could go down the drain. It’s comical when I think of it now. It makes my heart giggle at her silliness. This could be the reason why I am such a worrier now and why I always think about the worst possible scenarios. It about killed me this past February when she was in the hospital for about a week. We almost lost her multiple times. The pace maker that they put in her is just a way of buying her time and I will cherish every moment that I have left with her.
Senior year, where can I even start? Senior year has been one of the biggest eye openers ever. During my senior year I have learned the true meaning of friendships and relationships.  I don’t regret anything that has happened and I don’t regret how everything worked out. Firstly, the best thing that has happened this year is that I am now in a relationship with my best friend.  Jordan Earl Gibson is the love of my life. He has taught me so many things this year that the words “thank you” can never be enough. He has helped me find me confidence and he has helped me learn that I can be myself at all times. I love every moment that I have with him. Every single time we talk rather its text, on the phone, or in person we always get closer. He is the one that I can tell everything to and he completely gets me. We both know each other like the backs of our hands and we know at all times what the other one is thinking even when we say differently. I can say with confident that he is the one that I am going to spend the rest of my life with. He even came into my life right at the perfect time. He was truly an answer to my prayer.  I can’t wait to see what our journey holds for us in the future.  I know that it won’t be perfectly smooth, but I know that we can always make it through.
If I could give myself advice then I would let myself know that I should learn to live day by day and to never take anything for granted. Life is too precious and too spontaneous to take everything so serious. I am making the promise to myself to smile every single day even if the waters are rough.  God has blessed me too much and frowning would be like spitting in his face and taking everything for granted. I refuse to do that. I have too much to smile about and too many memories that I shouldn't just let go pass me. I love life and I am going to succeed in everything that I do because even I do fail then I am still winning because at least I tried and got the experience. Thank you, life.  I can’t wait to see what else you may throw my way. I can’t wait to learn.
                                                               Sincerely,                 
                                                                 Debrinna Adams

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